Why? (Sestina)

Why don’t you understand
This can’t be just a Phase
It’s something I can’t Resist
I cried just one Tear
It makes me feel so empty
I can’t hold in the scream

You ask why I want to Scream
But you just don’t understand
Why I feel so empty
You say that it’s just a Phase
Why I couldn’t hold back just one Tear?
I wish I could resist

Why don’t you resist?
Your awful words make me Scream
Inside is all one epic Tear
You just don’t have ability to understand
That this is not just a Phase

I can’t stand by so Empty
But I just can’t resist
Impossible to get out of this so called Phase
I try no longer to hold in my Scream
You still don’t understand
And you laugh at the tear

I can’t stand that one tear

It makes me feel Empty
Could you even try to understand
I can’t even try to resist
The urge to Scream
I wish this were just a Phase

Stop telling me it’s just a Phase
That there’s nothing bad about one Tear
I want to fight the urge to Scream
I can’t say I’m Empty
It’s hard to resist
But now I understand

Wiriting a poem in five minutes (Tell me what you think!)

Standing out, looking in

Wishing to be in that wonderland they're in

They are so loved

And I am so unloved

They're as pretty as the the stars

All I have are scars

Everyone wants to be them

Who wouldn't? They are gems

They have it all, everything

And I have Nothing

I write this poem in vain

To try and explain this pain

But I can't

And I shan't

For I can't change who I am

Isolated

I stand in the midst of a crowd

But I feel lonely

There are fairly millions of voices around me

But I hear no noise

Why do I always feel alone

Why don't I ever hear any noise

I can't stand the lonliness

I can't stand the quiet

Please help me

Open my heart

Open my ears

LIttle Star

I look up at you hopefully

I make a wish

I wonder if it will come true

Please little star

Use your magic

To help me

I can't take the pain anymore

and you're my last hope

Please do try little star!

Run

You throw rocks at my window

Softly enough so my father won't hear

but loud enough for me to

I smile as you look up at me

and hold out your hand

I slip off the sill into your arms

I love the feeling

As you hug me

But just for a moment

For we can't risk it

We have to go

So we run

The moment should've lasted forever

but we had no time

we had to run

so we ran

Please don't leave me

I can't cry
I won't cry
Please don't make me cry!
You say it will be fine
But inside you don't really know
You say that you will come ok someday
But what if you're not?
I can't live without you!
My life would be a mess without your love
and you guidance
Please don't go!
I need you!
I can't live without you!
I was countin' on forever
But now all I can count on is a day
I hate these people
Telling me what's going to happen
That there is no chance on survival
I can't do this!
I can't be strong like you need me to be!
Please don't leave me!

Acrostic: Rhythm

Racing through my body
Hear the beat rushing through my ears
You call my name, I don’t hear you
Trying to get me out of this wonderland I’m in
How hard you’ve tried!
My eyes and ears are closed to everything but this sweet rhythm of mine

Alone

My mom yelled at me again
I don’t know what I did
To deserve this
She tells me
That I’m no good
That I should die
Or at least go to hell
Maybe I should
What did I do?
She tells me
That I’m fat
That I shouldn’t eat as much
Does she pay attention to me?
I love her so much
So I don’t eat anything at all
Ever

Sometimes I wonder
If I will always be alone
If my mom will always hate me
If I will ever be beautiful in her eyes
If she will ever be proud of me
I was two minutes early from school
She yelled at me and threw whatever she could find
Telling me that she needed more time just to herself
And that she didn’t want me around
I broke down and cried right there

She didnt give a second thought and hurled a vase at me

She locked me in the basement today
She laughs as I cry in pain
My head throbs
The gash on my forehead
Is pounding out blood
I wonder why?
Why does she hate me?
Feeling guilty
She unlocks the door
It’s too late
I’m lying dead, on the floor
I found a knife
I knew I would bleed to death
So I saved myself the pain

Laying on the floor next to my lifeless form

Was a blood-soaked paper
"Why did you hate me?
I love you so much mom
And I listened to you
I haven’t eaten hardly anything
And I wish often
That I could go to hell
Just to make you happy mom."

Today Is

Today Is…


Today is not being able to find socks that match

Today is a broken glass on the floor

Today is running into a wall

Today is finding he loves you not

Today is a lost library book

Today is snapping your ruler

Today is a note you just cannot hit

Today is a slippery floor

Today is a fight with your best friend

Today is just a day. I look forward to tomorrow.

This Night

I cannot stand this night
I hate the surrounding blackness
I really need some light

There is in nothing in my sight
Not a bloody thing to caress
I cannot stand this night

I walk blindly in wondering which way is right
How do I get through this mess?
I really need some light

Trying to win this fight
But I’m losing none the less
I cannot stand this night


I hear something creeping, ready to smite
I freeze in the darkness
I really need some light


I hear it again, my feet soon to take flight
This is it I guess
I cannot stand this night

I realize that my footsteps caused me such fright
How could I anchor such foolishness?
I really need some light

Guidance

Guidance

Sailors depend on a compass to show them the way
But if the compass should break
The sailors depend on the starts for guidance
They don’t need the compass
For a true sailor can read the stars
Just like a book

Life

Life
A flower that’s just a seed
Sprouts up from the ground
Green and small
Then it buds and starts to open
Turning into a beautiful mass of colors
As soon as it has blossomed it fades
The colors turn to gray
The petals start to wilt
They fall limply to the ground
And as it was there
It faded
Faster than it began