Alone

My mom yelled at me again
I don’t know what I did
To deserve this
She tells me
That I’m no good
That I should die
Or at least go to hell
Maybe I should
What did I do?
She tells me
That I’m fat
That I shouldn’t eat as much
Does she pay attention to me?
I love her so much
So I don’t eat anything at all
Ever

Sometimes I wonder
If I will always be alone
If my mom will always hate me
If I will ever be beautiful in her eyes
If she will ever be proud of me
I was two minutes early from school
She yelled at me and threw whatever she could find
Telling me that she needed more time just to herself
And that she didn’t want me around
I broke down and cried right there

She didnt give a second thought and hurled a vase at me

She locked me in the basement today
She laughs as I cry in pain
My head throbs
The gash on my forehead
Is pounding out blood
I wonder why?
Why does she hate me?
Feeling guilty
She unlocks the door
It’s too late
I’m lying dead, on the floor
I found a knife
I knew I would bleed to death
So I saved myself the pain

Laying on the floor next to my lifeless form

Was a blood-soaked paper
"Why did you hate me?
I love you so much mom
And I listened to you
I haven’t eaten hardly anything
And I wish often
That I could go to hell
Just to make you happy mom."